I read and walked for miles at night along the beach writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly for someone wonderful who would step out of the darkness and change my life. It never crossed my mind that that person could be me.
People always blame the girl she should have said no. A monosyllable but...
You do have to change things as warfare changes.
You made a lot of mistakes and you wrote a lot of crap. But it was all part of the learning process.