I live in a kind of gay bubble. I live in a gay house I drive a gay car. I eat gay food.
I've found a more personal pagan kind of religion to satisfy the spiritual...
I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp...
It seems that when you get to a certain age you almost give yourself permission to misbehave and say what you think. People allow it with very old people.