First accept sadness. Realize that without losing winning isn't so great.
If you have parents with a healthy relationship you don't learn that you...
I had never felt so lonely and so sad in my entire life.
Go on thinking that you don't need to be read and you'll find that it may become quite true: no one will feel the need tom read it because it is written for yourself alone and the public won't feel any impulse to gate crash such a private party.