If someone decides to be a musician now it means because there is no hope of money at the end of it it means they really want to be a musician. And if someone is writing now there is no hope for money at the end of it.
There's much to be said for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat...
If you've never felt that you quite got a hold of it you just feel that...
That is the definition of faith - acceptance of that which we imagine to be true that which we cannot prove.
