I think there's a lot projected on beautiful women period. At least maybe this is just my fear but I do sometimes feel dismissed before I've even been allowed to participate. I have moments of feeling really wounded. But I am pretty optimistic and I do enjoy a lot of my life.
When I was younger my coach Liang Chow made all the decisions. I would go to the gym for practice do exactly what Chow told me to do go home come back and start all over again. If Chow told me to do 50 squat jumps I did 50 squat jumps.
